Fall seven times...Stand up eight... Minsan, may pagkakataon sa buhay natin di naayon sa ating kagustuhan. Yes, it may hurt us in the course of accepting it but in the end, what matters most is we stand up and we learn something out from our mistakes. Para sa iba, sayang o nagsasayang lang ng pera o panahon pero kung iisipin natin, ano nga ba ang mas matimbang? Is it the money that has been wasted? Or the lessons that we do learn everytime we fall? Para sa akin, huli man sa maraming pagkakataon, ngunit mas matimbang pa din bandang huli ang mga lessons na mapupulot ko; dahil sa bawat pagkakamali natin sa ating buhay, may aral dapat tayong napupulot. I'm not justifying that this saying is totally right. But in the end, the big question is, do we learn something everytime we fall? For others, this saying may not be effective pero minsan, mas mainam na magkamali tayo, tanggapin ito at bumangon ulit. Dahil sa bawat pagbangon, doon natin ma rerealize na unti unti tayong nahuhubog di lamang ng kaalaman kundi bilang maging isang mabuting tao.
Ang YamYam ni MieMie The Story of Us...The Story of We
Other people thought that we lived a perfect life... That in our so called relationship, we never have any ups and downs as a couple or if i may say, as an individual. Yes, we've got a lot of indifferences. But one thing is certain; that when we decided to stick with one another, through thick and thin, we stayed not because we are not getting any younger, but more of, in the course of knowing each other as each day passes, we realized how blessed we do; at the same time, there is always a room for both of us to improve together.
So what makes different why I chose this guy to become the man of my life, my friend, my critic, my worst enemy and my guide all in one?
I decided to give this good soul a place in my life for he really have imparted big on what I am today. Yes, I am still a work in progress, but this man have shown me the unconditional love and understanding only those who understands who really I am all throughout. It is really a fact that understanding someone like me is really not that easy. And even though I am so stubborn and unbearably unpredictable, this guy have chosen to stay and work things out with me and for that alone, I should be grateful.
He came into my life the time I accepted the fact that with or without a partner, I would be then contented. And who would ever think that a simple dinner invitation after our first meet up would be succeeded by more dinners and most of the time, a breakfast invites.
So what really makes him unique among the others, a factor that made me stay and stick with him?
To those who haven't known him, they would think he is snobbish. He is not a typical easy-to-get-along with type of guy(which is same impression given to me by others) - that even people in their area were really all thinking, how come, we two got acquainted. Aside from him being mataray, he is also busy as a bee with all his daily itinerary that most of the time he forgets that he also have a life. I remember one time, how he pushed me away for he thought I deserve someone better. But seeing how things are going through right now, despite all the hardships, I know my decision of staying with him is all worth it.
Yes, we are not perfect... We still fight to the extent that sometimes I feel I am already abusing him - physically and emotionally - and I am really sorry for that. I do not want to promise I would change outright but I believe through his guidance, nothing is impossible for me to control my temper, for he is really such a good soul for me to hurt him just like that.
And before I end this open space for him, I want him to know that though I have told this a lot of times already... I always bear the advice of his father, the first time he introduced me to his parents... That even if we built a life a bit late - it doesn't matter; for what more important is, we will face our future not alone but together.
Galing talaga ipakita ni Lord ang mga bagay bagay sa panahong di mo inaasahan.
Habang kumakain ako sa isang cafe', nakita ko ang isa sa dati kong kaeskwela na nagpalaganap ng tsismis na anak lang ako ng dentista, na kesyo di ako maalam at magpapagawa lang sa dental laboratory (para pumasa) at kung ano ano pa.
Di ko inakala na magsasalubong ang landas namin kasi di ko sya nakita pumasok. What only caught my attention was, when her "assistant" already quoting a price (Php500 for the retainers) for their alleged "patient" who happens to be the cook in the cafe' where I was eating breakfast.
Me, being a daughter of a dental practitioner, asked the "assistant" out of nowhere... and the convo goes like this: Me: "Dent Stude ka?" (With smiling face) A: "Opo... Sa _________________(name of the school)" Me: "Sino dean nyo?" Out of nowhere, my classmate looked out and answered: Classmate: "Ay ate andyan ka pala, i ca case ko sa school" Me: "Uy, musta? Layo nararating mo ah" (with sarcastic tone)
I changed topic while I approached her - for her not to become awkward (while me looking at her doing the impression taking procedure) 😂😂😂
Funny, she can not even look at me straight to the eye while talking to her...
Ang galing ni Lord coz he showed me through this incident some points to the extent that I'm already interrogating my own faith...
1.Let others do the talking behind your back for in the end, you know yourself better than them. 2. May mga taong nanghuhusga dahil gawain nila yun at ang tawag dun projection. 3. Not because I am a dentist's daughter means I am already exempted with failures. Kung dahil dun ang basehan, I wont be called by a professor "stupid" and I won't be interrogated by some in the course of achieving this. I also have my fair share too and that what matters most to me. Obviously, I rarely post pictures of what my daily routine/activities look like. It's not because I am not proud of what I'm doing but more of, I would rather let the action speaks for myself.
Yes, I am not perfect. I am always misinterpreted the way I speak - for others find it too harsh or rude. But in the end, one thing is ALWAYS certain, I stand firm with what I believe and one of it is to wait, even if the circumstances will delay you - for it is better to be late than be sorry.
God always has 3 answers... 1.No 2.Yes 3.Wait... and I am very much willing to wait ...
And because of this incident, I remember a friend told me once when I was on the midst of being attacked allegedly with no basis... "Diamond doesn't start out polished and shining ... It was nothing special but because of enough pressure and time, eventually it becomes spectacular"
Lastly, sorry Papa God I once questioned my faith to you 😯... And because of this, despite it took quite long for me to get an answer, I will move forward from now on and won't think anymore of what others will think of me. In the end of the day, I need not to explain myself for I know myself what are my capabilities and that what's really matters.
Sometimes, we have to cast away all our worries and fears to God. If things no longer serve us good and it no longer serve our purpose, the best way to do is to surrender everything to someone higher than us.
I have been through a lot pain and disappointments the past few months. There were unresolved issues that still left unanswered. Until one day, I realize that these are already an excess baggage that I have to let go for me to live anew.
Yes, I've got a lot of questions in my head that some of those, I wasn't able to get an answer up to this time. But in the end of the day, I have to stand still and if these queries are still left unanswered, I just have to let it be.
Admittedly, I don't know how nor where I will begin right now. But one thing I am sure of, I am lifting everything to God this time for no one is possible for it to be done our own way. I may not fully understand now why at my age, I have to undergo this process but maybe, there is a reason why I have to be. A guide from above would always be enough and that alone then, I will give Him then the wheel and let Him be the one to direct me to the right path... So for now... I'd rather let go... and let it be God.
Missing Mom
Mother knows best. I understand that. And I am blessed having a mom who only wants the best for me. Yes, we all have the ups and downs as a mother-daughter but in the end, I believe that our love will always prevail. If you only know how much I miss you. Our simple bonding of talking over a cup of coffee while waiting for patients, going to the mall with or without shopping, watching movies or just a simple dinner. But due to you being so kind to others, I have to stand firm for you to realize that I am doing this because I love you. All I want is just for them to stand on their own.I do not want you to get hurt neither used by some close to you but you do not get most of the time what I am pointing out. Yes i agree everytime you tell us your kids that better we could help than us asking for it. However, it's not acceptable neither that you nor we would help but in the end, nasty comments are still committed behind our backs - which hurts me the most. I wish I can tell you all the emotions I am feeling every day. My happiness, joy and my daily encounter in this so called foreign land. One day, I know we will be doing it again... I am just thinking that we have to really undergo this process for both of us to realize each others' importance. Yes, we are far from one another. But in my heart, you're always here and no one or no body can ever replace that. I miss you mom and I'll see you soon and dad when I get home. I love you both.
Removing Toxic People
There are individuals who are not contended unless they bring constant negativity, complaints, gossips and selfishness in someone's life. These are the toxic ones whom I guess, can not live within a day causing no harm to other people regardless if it is their loved ones, friends, colleagues or just a complete strangers.
Yes, toxic people have different ways on how to ruin someone for the sake of imposing whatever ulterior motive they have. And being so, we have to be cautious not to let them penetrate our happy lives.
I myself was once a victim of this kind of individuals. Not just once but a lot. Sometimes, the saddest part is, the one whom you trusted the most is also the one who will also stab you behind your back. When I first came in different land to pursue my schooling, I really had a difficulty coping up. Dealing with individuals with different cultures, I must say, that is easy to manage; however, what I wasn't prepared of during those times were, dealing with toxic people who will initially befriend you and afterwards, creating nasty stories full of lies. Yes, I was a victim of such. At first, I really got affected to the extent that even my schooling got afflicted. I was so depressed to the extent that I would rather go home and start over again. But for me, life is not about running with our problems. So instead of going home defeated, I decided to stay, wait and prove not those who put me down but myself, that this is just a challenge and I have to let it pass and overcome this obstacles.
So how did I begin? When my health was already compromise of these people's cruelty, I decided to act upon it myself. I removed these people little by little in my system and retained those ones who had known me inside out . I focused more on my own happiness and personal growth; I went back to those hobby that interests me the most. I went back into travelling, reconnect with old friends and live a life as long as I know that I am not doing anything bad to anyone else. Yes, I only retained few circle of friends. And I even have to reject some family members who no longer serve me purpose. But you know what I have acquired from doing so? I have regained my self respect